Over the weekend I had a disagreement with someone, nothing serious but enough for me to go quiet and feel I had been treated unfairly and harshly. I felt angry and although I wanted to make amends and move on from this my head was telling me that ‘they should apologise’, ‘why should I do anything’, ‘I am too angry to speak to them’.
I then stopped and imagined my thoughts being like the snow in a snow globe and let them settle so it was clear. I could then get in touch with my feeling and inner wisdom in my heart and stomach. My inner wisdom was saying make amends. Forgive and move on as both were party to the disagreement.
As soon as I was in touch wit this my head kicked in telling me ‘not to be so stupid, why should I make amends’. This went on for a few minutes, fluctuating between inner wisdom and thought.
I trusted my God given inner wisdom as it is not contaminated with my thoughts. Thoughts are not reality. They tell us they are, however they create a reality that is contaminated with our brokenness and past experiences that are not the same as the hear and now. Our thoughts trap us in habits and behaviours we cannot move on from. That is what I experienced. My thoughts were preventing me from moving on. I was reminded by the saying ‘you can be right or alive’. My thoughts were telling my I was right. However, they were keeping me from being alive.
So, trusting my inner wisdom I took the initiative and made amends, restoring the relationship and enabling both of us to be alive to each other and the world.
Have fun exploring your inner wisdom. It is like learning a new language, you may find it gets easier with practice.
