I have come back to London from Cornwall for a couple of days to attend a exhibition. It was quite a last minute decision to attend and it was only worth my while doing so if I have enough CDs of my fertility hypnosis program to show people and give to clinics. It has been a fraught week with lots of potential stress and it was going to cutting it fine to get the CDs produced in time however it was possible…except for some reason I was convinced it was going to go horribly wrong!
I lay awake last night convinced the CDs would be in the wrong format because I wasn’t perhaps clear to them that I wanted them to convert the file I provided. I replayed the conversation I had with them over and over. Because my thinking was telling me this problem was real, my mind looked for all the evidence to back it up, interpreting the conversation and subsequent email in a way that re-inforced the belief – keeping me awake in the process! This is how stress works.
Thankfully I reminded myself that I didn’t know that was true. My mind was mixing the lethal combination of imagination and insecurity. I felt insecure about it because I don’t like working in such a last minute and rushed way. These two together can send you down a rabbit hole of reality…an Alice in Wonderland reality! The thing is, at the time it is so convincing! This is because your thoughts are telling you they are as result of this ‘reality’ not the creator of it.
Thankfully I was able to remind myself of this. I didn’t know it had gone wrong. What if it had? It was not the end of the world. Also, it wasn’t as if worrying about it was going to change it. That’s another thing. Think about what you worry about. Is it something you can influence or not? Too often we spend time worrying about things out of our control – how mad is that!
So, what stories are your thoughts telling you?
Oh, and the CDs arrived and they are just right!
